Thanks Sky and pinksoil.

Sky, I'm sorry you went through such bad experiences at work. There are some awful bosses out there!

I hope that this will ultimately be the start of something better. It's so hard to imagine that right now. I told my T that roughly 90% of my self-esteem was wrapped up in having my job (since I felt like it was a good job). I'm trying to find some way to think good about myself without it. I've not even fully unemployed yet (since I'm working this last week), and I'm already afraid that I'll turn into a lazy bum or something. I feel sick at the thought of working on my resume, but I've really got to. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid no one will want to hire me. And yet it's illogical because I know my work record is good. I may not be the best ever, but I'm dedicated and reliable.

I found my old resume today. I plan to start updating it next week. I hope I don't get distracted by the potential of just doing nothing. It'd be so easy to lay around and watch TV or something. I'm scared I'll procrastinate.

Sidony