sabau2,
I agree with everything you said. I don't mind being alone, rather enjoy it. I spend most of my time (when I'm not working) thinking, I keep looking for answers within myself. I guess my problem is that I don't know how to move on, and as far as healing time, I should of accomplished that by now, but I haven't. Maybe I just spend too much time thinking...

I am alot better than I used to be about taking care #1 (myself), but quite haven't mastered it yet. That is a hard one you know. I used to take everyone else feelings into account first, but now I usually think "what do I want". But still at times I find myself doing for others when I don't really want to. (Like my ex's laundry on the weekend).

I go back and forth in my way of thinking, do you think it could be menopause (haven't had a period since last October) or is there something else mentally wrong with me?? What ever it is I just wish I would get over it before I drive myself crazy.

Anyway thanks for your post, wishing you inner peace and happiness...