Hi Cosmic Rose,

I am in exactly the same situation as you are, the only difference being that my boyfriend ended our relationship. I totally understand how you are feeling. My boyfriend was a very social person, something I hoped would rub off on me, but in the end I just found it intimidating and it made me even more insecure. While I was so wrapped up in my own low moods I didn’t even realise what I was putting him through and that he had his own worries that he was trying to cope with on his own. I'm so ashamed at how I behaved.

Like you I feel that my mental health issues have always pulled me away from the positive things in my life. Deep down I know that I am a good person, but my insecurities seem to take priority and I become someone I don't even recognise. I'm trying to look at it all as a wake up call, so I am starting counselling next week in the hope of finally finding out why I am the way I am and some way of living a happier life.

You sound like a lovely person. Try to remember that and not beat yourself up so much about what has happened. I truly hope that you can reconnect with him and if not you that find happiness in yourself.