Hi, I'm not sure if I'm in the right place, but I figure this is a safe place. Last August I went to inpatient rehab for opioid abuse. I had been taking painkillers, heroin, whatever resembled an opiate high. At my worst, I was taking approximately 100mg oxycodone per day. One day I cracked, and went to get help. But I wasn't ready to quit then. I thought I was, but I relapsed a month later and haven't stopped since. I convince myself that I'm not as bad as I was, but I am, truthfully. Maybe worse.

I took some fentanyl last night. My breathing was so poor that I was afraid I wouldn't wake up. I feel like I'm really ready to quit now. Where do I go from here? Every day I wake up wanting to get high. I think about it every day. I have to do something now before I lose my attention on getting better. But I'm afraid nobody will take me seriously, since I'm not actively in w/d. Is a suboxone or methadone treatment possible? Honestly, the only way I feel like I'll get better is with maintenance therapy. No matter how long I go without them, I'll always crave them.