Hi. So sorry if this is in the wrong place, but I couldn't figure out where to post. I'm feeling really bad at the moment and have a week before I can see my T.

I got a job, my first ever...which is a huge step for me. The whole interview process went really smoothly, too. I had my first day recently and I did expect to be a bit rattled, given my problems with anxiety, and held up pretty well while I was there. I didn't ever loose my cool if I started to feel too nervous. I pushed through and did the best I could.

But afterwards I just felt like crying. I just wanted to go to bed and It was only 4. I should be happy that I'm able to take these steps as they come. I thought maybe I was just exhausted and needed sleep...but today I feel even lower. And I'm afraid of continuing to feel this way when I have to go back tomorrow.

I don't want to feed this monster. Anxiety. Depression. Whatever it may be. I don't know what to do right now though.

(Not too long ago the Pdoc upped my Prozac and I don't know if that has anything to do with it or not. Either way I don't get to see her for 2 weeks.)

Anyway, thanks for your time. ♡