I am speaking of romantic relationships, and the failure thereof. I have realized, belatedly, after a lifetime of failures, long recoveries, that my lack of self-esteem is the core issue in my poor choices. I could go into the long history here, but will refrain. It has evolved, however, that now I don't trust my judgment regarding relationships with men, and choose to be alone rather than risking another chaotic experience!
Can anyone else relate!
At the same time, I am building a positive existence finally, with this knowledge of my foibles and weakness in judgment. I have a good job, a challenging educational pursuit, my daughter and twin grandsons, a large pet family, and my little home which is a challenging improvement project.
I do still grieve over my failure in the relationship department but not to the extent that I want to risk another failure!
Patty