I was born with Asperger Syndrome, OCD & ADHD.
This is my curse and my burden.

Additionaly, the lonliness I'm going through because of my Aspergers makes me depressed because everyone desires love and intimacy.
I'm afraid of love, but I also desire it at the same time. I know that I can't have a relationship because I'm to diffrent and complicated,
and it's a painfull truth that I've learnt to accept.

I'm cursed to live my whole life locked up in a apartment, alone and afraid. I'm currently 18 years old, it's been 5 years since I fell into a dark and lonely hole.
I pushed away the friends I had and havn't let anyone else in since. I feel like for everyday that goes by, I fall further and futher down in this depressing hole, and
after 5 years i've fallen so deep that I'm starting to lose sight of the light.

I'm afraid of going insane. One day, there will be voices in my head to keep me commpany. This curse is a disease that is slowly killing me, one day I will hit the
bottom of that hole and I'm afraid of what demons might be waiting for me down there. It's making me numb.

There's no fixing me.

I'm just a boy with no future and no hope. All I can do is wait for death, and hope for a better afterlife. For whatever I did in my past life, I'm sorry.