Okay so I did a little experiment today (I've done this before but never wrote about it) I brought up previous topics of discussions with individuals. The first target was the girl at the place where I get my caffeine fix - I asked if she ever got that monkey she was talking about. She looked at me kinda of curious and blank. I reminded her that we had talked about pets the week before and she had mentioned she had always wanted a monkey. A faint recall came across her face - "oh yeah". Next I tried a discussion with the checkout lady at the grocery store - the week before I had commented on her purple hair and she said that she was thinking about blue next. "I thought you were dying your hair blue" I said. "What" she said. I just looked at her and said thanks. Finally, I talked to my neighbor about his rhubarb - the week before he had asked if I wanted some. He didn't really recall the conversation. Bottom line is I live in this hyper sensitive world where every word is important and to other people not so much. These conversations are so clear - the need for them to remember so desperate.