(((((((Doonney))))))) reading some of the kind remarks you've left at other peoples posts it looks like you have tender feelings for others just maybe not yourself. Hope we can be of help here at PC...Im very sad for all you've been thru and commend your for the strength youve shown. Hope you have some things to be hopeful about.....I often feel very numb.....from being thru abuse too....I walk around and don't feel myself doing it. I could be a marathon walker..hee hee. ...............luv Jjulia