It happens to the best of us. people didn't used to be able to tell i was crazy either. and i used to not drink, go to school, dress normal. all of that stuff. now i am a drunk at home living with mom at age 31. i can't get motivation to change it. sometimes i think i should try harder so that i can at least find a new man, but then i think i wouldn't be able to handle that anyway so i stay in my rut.....
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Originally Posted by Nina Simone
Thomas Cooley said "I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am; I am who I think you think I am". I have found this to be true in life. I react to what I perceive in others.
Up until the last several years I was excellent at maintaining a good front. I looked good and no one knew what was really happening with me. Little by little it all started to crumble. Now I don't go out much and I don't interact with many people. I'm just tired. I have to find a new way of being in the world and being my open, honest self is difficult. The truth is I don't really like many of the people in my life and I don't want to be involved with them. To say that makes me a bish which I'm not and don't want people to see me that way. I admire people who dance to their own music and live life on their own terms. I hope to get there.
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