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Originally Posted by Astridetal
I talked to my former therapis tabout my binge eating a few times. I didn't say how much I ate or what foods I ate. I honestly don't think that's the important part and if your therapist keeps asking you abou thtat and it makes you feel uncomfortable, I'd say you don't want to talk about the numbers/details. It's more important what happens before a binge episode, how you feel about it, what are the consequences, etc. Could you tell your therpaist htat, while you want to work on your binge eaitng, you want to work on what's causing it or contriuting to it. If you want advice on what to eat or how much to eat, you'd go to a dietician.
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She's trying to establish why I'm doing that. I think she doesn't know how to tackle my problem, as she doesn't know much about it. Personally, I cannot admit I have an eating disorder (I feel huge resistance admitting that). I'm doing different things. Sometimes I control myself, sometimes I eat normally, sometimes I binge. I don't understand this mechanism and she doesn't understand that too (as I'm not talking about it). I know I should talk about it, but I don't know how. Now I'm even more sure I need that, as I can see how much ashamed I feel. I think she's also trying to figure out why I'm so ashamed. Moreover, I think she wants me to see myself true, just as I am. She wants me to admit who I am, what I do, how I behave. I don't accept myself binging, I don't accept myself a weak person. I still try to hide this piece of myself.