((((((((Cakeladie, Jan, all))))))))))))))

sooo.... I have another dr apnt this week... this is with a doc I tried to change over to, but she has a male scribe who sits through the whole apnt and that often renders me speechless - that whole ptsd, dissociation thing. yay.
but I want another opinion on my tonsils.... (for those who are easily grossed out, stop reading now )
last chance
ok so, due to chronic bronchitis (since I was 3), my tonsils are really enlarged and full of pockets... these pockets, that I thought were infected and full of puss, are actually full of food! @_@
warned ya
So I am supposed to keep them clear of food.... oh ok. I've tried everything. And my swallowing is bad (I'm getting de ja vu of de ja vu of writing this.... woah). my other dr said there's nothing wrong with my throat, that it's something like "gloubious hystericus" but had me do a barium swallow xray test anyway... proving there's nothing wrong with my throat.
except that I choke on water, get food and pills stuck in my throat, and that there is still food particles in my throat the next day (yuck, I know).
Meanwhile, there's now food in my tonsils daily. I can't get it out. THey say at 38 i'm too old to have my tonsils out - but honestly, if they're in there putrefying, what am I supposed to do? wait for some horrid infection ten years or so down the line when it is going to be emergency surgery, and where I may get some secondary infection from?
I don't like it. I don't know what else to do. And I will have to write this down in case I can't speak in front of the male scribe. That will be Thursday. Pocket riders accepted.
And I SO don't want it just "chalked up to fibro". Because honestly, not EVERYTHING is fibro... just like not EVERYTHING was just in my head before the "existence" of fibro.
End rant