I don't know what is and isn't a trigger in this so the whole thing is going to be put in a trigger box, so if you are triggered by a variety of different things don't read this.
Thank you for reading I know it was long and sorry about that and i just don't know what to do any more I can not cope with everything by myself anymore I have never felt this empty before I don't feel angry or sad about any of this just, empty. I don't know what i was looking for by typing this out, I don't even know if i should be posting it or if anyone will care, yet I still wrought it and posted it so i guess im looking for something. again thanks for reading.