Sorry for being so defensive earlier. I am considering that if the grandmother was indeed a guide, that maybe the dream was telling me that I should not be afraid to explore my past anymore. And, that if I keep running away from the things that frighten me, eventually it will lead to my death or failure. I am beginning to remember some things that are rather peculiar, but have not figured out the cause for my major issues. I feel like the memories of my childhood that I have hidden in the back of my mind are still haunting me and I need to face them. I feel like I am ready to take them on, but need a guide to help me uncover them. Maybe this guide is the therapist that I will hopefully see soon.