I chalk this up to my medication. Ever since I started medication I feel like I've lost 10-20 IQ points. I am unable to complete the puzzles (sudoku, crossword) as I used to. Reading takes more of an effort. I particularly notice my slowness in social situations. I am not as witty or quick as I used to be and it is sometimes difficult to carry on a conversation without getting mixed up or forgetting words entirely. It is really embarrasing, and at times I simply give up. It is really bothersome as I once considered myself intelligent and now am certain I am being labelled as dumb.

BUT, I fear the alternative. Without the medication my life is caotic fluctuating between the mania and debilitating depression or anxiety.