I had this talk with one of my online friends. He is a special one, always messaging me and asking how I'm doing.

I told him: "I despise people, but at the same time I desire them".
He said: "The desire for them is in your heart, but it's your mental disabilities that makes you depise them.".

These mental disabilities really are like a curse as they battle to control
my heart, but I will fight back one day and then we'll see who's cursed.
I will controll my disabilties one day, whether that be in this life or the
afterlife.

The battle inside, coming to you this year in november (epic voice).