Julia & RACEHA thanks for being there - listening and being supportive.

I'm sorry you both know where I'm coming from. I really do wish niether of you knew how bad I feel. But I am glad you are both there, so I may have someone to talk to. There is no one out here ( not family they did this to me - not friends they can't cope with it - and not hubby it just makes him sad and angry ) I can talk to who understands (thankfully in some ways I guess) besides my T.

Most of the time it's just me and all this Pain!