I have been divorced a short while after being married for a little better than 20 years. As a whole, I am probably like many males in that despite not wanting to stay married, getting divorced has left me feeling like a failure. Made the mistake of getting into a relationship before the divorce was even final. The woman and I fell as people do in these situations and within a few months I was in serious need of some breathing room. I mean I had none. She moved out and now I feel like death and deep sorrow are my only friends. I am just so tired of being lost and of feeling the sum of this worthlessness. How can a man break up with someone because they repeatedly lead him to want to break up, and yet be so brokenhearted over the fact. I am ashamed of myself for not being stronger and for all these tears that I have been crying. For three days I have basically just existed in the cracks. I have no one to share this with, i apologize.
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