In my last hyper sexuality I could not stop looking at porn that then made me feel so disturbed and gross. And yet then I would do it again. Ugh. You're not alone. But of all things this is probably one we shouldn't beat ourselves up about too much.

And I know the giddy sexy uncomfortable energy rambunctious feeling. Oh how I do! It rocks and SUCKS. I remember being at a burger place with my family with club music pounding in my head only feeling so sexed up that I was (or thought I was) enticing to all the waiters as I sauntered manicly to the bathroom. Oh the heat.

You're not alone.