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Originally Posted by RisuNeko
Sounds like things are picking up again. Are you taking the new dose of clonopin? Do you think it's helping or hurting the situation. Hang in there. Try not to feel ashamed about the hypersexuality. It happens.
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I am taking the new dose of klonapin. It is hit or miss as far as sleep and I'm not sure if it is working or not. I know he started it because my symptoms were becoming particularly dysphoric but I'm not sure if it is working. I'm sure the shame will come later, ha!
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Originally Posted by Capriciousness
Yeah that should be a t shirt. "Hypersexuality happens". Ha. Inside joke
Cash are you ever bisexual when you are baseline? Or is this a manic thing?
Truth be told, I never even thought about me being bisexual until someone on this site mentioned it but I most definitely am and I am in fact closer to homosexual than I am to heterosexual. I came out as a lesbian in high school but walked away from the lifestyle in my late teens, probably because of a combination of my christian beliefs and my mom's strong discouragement. I love my husband and I am thankful for him and my children so I am CERTAIN I made the right decision but I am afraid I will leave them for a woman while manic. That's the only time it's and issue.
By the way. You never know your husband may be into it.....Even if he was, I wouldn't feel comfortable bringing a third party into my marriage. I would feel extremely insecure.
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Originally Posted by Capriciousness
In my last hyper sexuality I could not stop looking at porn that then made me feel so disturbed and gross. Just two weeks ago, I told my therapist that I have a problem watching porn while manic. It was so hard to admit. She asked me if I watched it all the time insinuating that it becomes very addicting but I was very insistent that it is only while manic. I also admitted to masturbating up to 10 times a day. This is something not impossible to admit online to people you don't have faces and names to but is an entirely different story in person. I honestly think it made her uncomfortable.
And I know the giddy sexy uncomfortable energy rambunctious feeling. Oh how I do! It rocks and SUCKS. I remember being at a burger place with my family with club music pounding in my head only feeling so sexed up that I was (or thought I was) enticing to all the waiters as I sauntered manicly to the bathroom. Oh the heat. AMEN 
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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