Hi lost feeling. Sorry for your losses in your life. It sounds like you are still grieving. Have you considered a grief counselor and or therapist.

For me the challenge is to find things that I can do every day that keep me in balance. For me that is yoga, mindfulness, exercise, and positive activities that give me a reason to push through the stress of work and the world.

You can do volunteer work and that can lead you into a new opportunity and serve as a reference point in a resume.

Maybe there is a pattern of the type of company or the type of job that you find stressful. These jobs could be a road sign saying STRESS AHEAD - do not proceed seek an alternate route.

These are all good things to talk to a therapist about.