Hi, as you all know my therapist left, he got another job offering and took it, honestly I was mad, he was so good, I thought there was a chance for a change for me. He did however recommend someone. I called her and scheduled an appointment its next Thursday. I'm scared, and almost dead inside. I feel that therapy is a trip of lies, that in which I need to stop feeling. I just hate the fact I'm in contact and giving information to a stranger who'sgetting paid. No doubt thats all exagerrated and not true, but I see all the ppl on PC giving their time, why I can't I have someone like that IN PERSON....Anyway I'm ranting because I'm frankly just tired of my attempts at help 5 therapists going on 6 in 3 years isn't good.....

I dunno how to make the sessions "worht while" I'm afraid,ashamed, for no reason but because I'm lying the whole visit, not able to find trust in a doc, i dunno why either............its so hard for me.....for anyone .......but here goes again......but a week and 1 day seems forever. =(