I have health insurance but unfortunately they don't cover things like simboxen because they suck. I can't go to rehab due to issues with my ex husband so I'm kinda stuck talking to people on here. I don't trust anyone to talk to about this really. Plus my family is rather judgmental and cruel. I plan on talking with my boyfriend tonight but I'm scared he'll leave me. But I have to be honest with him. He deserves the truth and he does notice. Just scared I guess. I got to a point today where it was really really hard and I had to take my anxiety medication to calm myself down. I just hate my depression and the pills have always made it numb. Facing the pain scares the crap out of me and I don't think therapy works.