I'm having real problems coping today...feel like giving up but can't do that either. I sometimes wonder if my world will ever be the same again. I'm so sick of feeling depressed, I'm so sick of myself that I almost can't stand it anymore. I would love to wake up in the morning looking forward to a new day, instead I wake up thinking...oh no not another day to have to deal with. Does it ever get any better? I've been struggling with depression for almost four years now and though I guess you would say I'm "functional", I am not happy. I don't even know what happiness is anymore and i feel so alone and feel like giving up.