The beginning is the hardest. Not knowing...the unknown...the hardest part of all. Once you get into it, it develops a rhythm and a life, just like everything else. I thought I'd have no life. WRONG. I never had a life drinking! And I was the life of the party back then!
I can't say I like myself yet. I'm not there, even after nine years of counselling, groups, meetings, etc etc etc. BUT...and this is a BIG BUT...I LOVE SOBRIETY. Period. Life gets incredibly so much better, even if certain things take a long time to change. Recovery and life are not destinations, they're processes; I got fooled by all the stories I heard in early recovery about people getting good jobs, finishing degrees, getting married, having kids, buying houses/cars/whatever, loving and forgiving themselves and everyone else, at only a few years sober. That's possible. It's possible also to have none of that...but still feel without a doubt in your mind that recovery is the best thing that ever happened.
Me, today:
1. on the cusp of 9 years of sobriety.
2. like myself on some days, not so much on others.
3. actually left a good job to go on disability; still dealing with that sometimes, although it's been several years now so I think I've mostly made peace with it.
4. new choices every day.
5. solid relationships.
6. a clear understanding of myself and the world around me.
7. a network to rely on if and when I'm in trouble.
8. bailed myself out of debt single-handedly. (that was huge for me)
9. pay my bills on time, every month, since the day I got sober.
10. learned to be honest, with myself and with others.

I could go on and on. I guess the point is, even if everything doesn't work out exactly the way you want it to, you'll likely find way more reasons to be grateful for getting and staying sober than for not. And then you have the rest of your life to figure out how to live with yourself. I wish you all the best! I check in with this site every day, so please feel free to message me if you ever need or want to talk. I'll only give advice, opinion, etc, if you ask for it.