Crying is not something I'm good at. I actually had to work on it in therapy as a skill (thanks PTSD). I cry with my therapist and with my pdoc but since I moved next door to my mom I can't cry, even though I know she is sound asleep. I seem to need 30 miles between us to cry. And being this badly mixed makes it impossible because the sad is just countered by the manic and I'm left knowing I'm sad but mostly feeling numb.

I really want to just cry and get some of these feelings out. But it won't happen.

Please, is there anyone else who is tearless even when it's ok to cry?