Sorry you're feeling so bad. I was feeling the same way yesterday. It's okay to just chill out and just be good to yourself.

I have struggled with depression for over ten years and it's only lately with the help of medication that I feel like I can cope well. For once I don't wake up dreading each day and feeling anxious about whether I'll be able to make it through or not. But I still get down every once in a while and think that I'm back at the pit. It's only temporary, I tell myself and it is. But it's hard in the moment to believe it. Medication does help. I've fought against it my whole life but finally decided that I wanted a better quality of life than the one I had. I just couldn't take being consistently miserable for another second. Luckily, I found something that works.

You're not alone and you're not a freak! Don't give up. There is support and help out there. Yes, it is frustrating to battle against this disorder. People that don't have it don't know but it is possible to manage it.

Every time I feel down I go to the library and get some books on depression and read for a bit -- it reminds me that I'm not alone and it's great to be in an air conditioned environment! Also, libraries are peaceful wonderful places. You see people from all walks of life, families, students, people alone, all engaged in reading and working quietly. Libraries are active, respectful and calming places where people can meet and do their own thing together. Libraries are free and totally democratic and I'm always happy that they exist. It certainly is reassuring and a far cry from the really "cool" social scene that we depressives feel that we have to be part of to be part of the "normal" world.