Thank you Spal I was hoping someone would answer my post as I was feeling really in need of come type of contact today. I love to read and it is actually one of the few times that I can get some comfort from my depression. Seems like when I'm reading a good book I don't feel the pain as much. I love books! I'm trying to accept the fact that I will probably always have to struggle with depression and I so much want to experience some feelings of happiness but it seems like its hard to come by. At times I am so filled with dread about my future...scare of what I might do.