I say that because while I'm not depressed- I'm exhibiting symptoms of depression- I want to find another job- after a few interviews and my mistake cost me to miss a call back for a job- I feel like there's nothing out there for me- either I'm too despondent to either look anymore, or I'm to apathetic about responding to the job offers that look promising. I feel like I'm a failure- I wish I had the ambition when I was younger- when you're watching a cop show and the victim is 5 years younger than you in a successful career that you wish you had but never had the ambition/conviction to pursue- it's a bit depressing. I just don't feel like I had much self-worth. I'm a nice person, I stay positive- but I'm not really happy and am having trouble pushing myself to be more proactive again . . . . I wish I could just work from home and not have to interact with people for a while- laying in bed all day sounds very appealing to me lately . . and yet I don't see myself as depressed . . .