You're most definitely not alone. I thought I was completely weird as well. I've been going to therapy for a few months and was terrified to even bring this up during one of my sessions... thankfully I did and the therapist didn't make me feel like I'm nuts, it actually really helped. There are reasons why we try so hard to connect with this one person, mine have to do with not connecting with my own family, among other things.

Anyway, hope it gets better for you !