considering what you grow up with feeling normal, I know all too well what you mean. Although after leaving home in my 20s first helped me to start seeing the unhealthiness and dysfunction of my family life growing up, it was not until I moved 3,000 miles away and really became isolated enough from them to fully see the extent of that dysfunction and each role that my siblings and parents played in a lot of my warped views in life. I have since grown quite a bit from that and it's refreshing to see someone else starting on the same journey that I've been on for quite some time now. Good luck with that and I wish you well. If you need to talk more privately, just friend me on pc and you can PM me.