Thanks for the comments. I have been seeing a therapist, thought it was helping. I was excited about this new job. Then when I got there the place was so chaotic, and the workload was just overwhelming for me with no experience in the new field. I got too far in my head and couldn't get over it. I couldn't face it anymore and felt so self conscious. I hate myself for not being able to deal and running away. Just at a loss right now as to how to overcome this with any job I might face, and I know it's gonna be even harder to find work now with an even longer employment lapse on my resume. People in this world have so many more issues than I do, and here I am, unable to get over myself and stick it out at a job. I just have no motivation and can't bring myself to care. Life has just finally caught up to me I guess. Sigh.