Thanks everyone.

I am so nervous and anxious. I want to be a comfort to my sister and we are going Friday. I took tomorrow off to do laundry, after seeing my pdoc (and hoping for some miraculous peace even in medication form..) I will be with family which is nice but I hope to calm down. Not good at this.... I know, they say no one is..but a bit worried about keeping calm enough to not make a butt out of myself.

I know he is better off.. Really he is.

Thanks all.