ADHD has killed my life. I have to be honest about myself, I'm not trying to degrade myself when I say this, but I truly believe no one has the severity level of ADHD more than me. Like the adhd is so bad in me that my psychiatrist has gone on record in saying that no patient has he ever had did not respond to stimulants he's prescribed. I forget things in 15 minute spurts no less a couple hours. Not only is this a major problem, but I find myself constantly daydreaming at work. Part of the reason I got fired from this past job was because I didn't contribute in a common planning meeting for my teaching job. We discuss lesson planning and such in common planning, but I found I could simply not focus enough to have a discussion because of daydreaming and stress. I find that every task I do seems to take me at 5-6 hours to do it such as grading and I become so mentally exhausted from it. I guess my outlook as far as work goes is that it's nothing but busy work. The way I look at tasks is that I'm being tortured to death, which makes it harder for me, because I find in my life I have such limited passions. Does this mean I never try hard at work to get money? Of course not, but I find accomplishing tasks never give me satisfaction or instill any kind of a feeling in me other than "thank god the torture is over."

I think another observation about myself is that I constantly only fantasize about the glory days of the 90s and 80s. I never seem to find enjoyment of any tv show or movies of the modern era, which I feel hurts me greatly in conversation, which in turns hurts me at work. My therapist seems to think my aversions to the present has to do with me having such a short attention span. In other words, if I'm not instantly gratified or interests me period I daydream through it. My suggestion is if anyone has doubts about their career because of ADHD consult a career counselor or try to do a job where tasks are limited or manageable. I'm giving teaching one more try, but I'm not expecting a whole lot out of it since the tasks seem to be too strenuous for my mind.

The saddest part of ADHD is that people look at you as though you're incompetent or something, but when they look at autism or some notable disease they act like it's understandable. People