I need help. I've been suffering from depression since I was 10, undiagnosed until I was 14 with MDD. Suffered and probably still suffering from ptsd and ppd. I could"deal" with it up until now, I'm 30y/o, and now it's affecting the people I love... Mainly my husband. He doesn't understand the illness nor does he know how to help me. I'm at a loss. I've seen therapists, currently we a psychotherapist, do Tai chi, play soccer, work full time, etc… I know we all going go on. I think I need to know others go through the same. I don't want to die, but I don't know how to live without suffering. Any support would be great