Hi Friend

When you had your breakdown the psych ward was supposed to be a haven. were you treated with harshness or abused? is so the trauma has got registered in your subconscious mind. so it scares the hell out of you to think about visiting it again. these memories have to be healed or its going to torment you for a long time. talk to a therapist who can help you with this. following up with a therapist may save you from breakdown which can prevent you from being confined to psych ward.