Cpn came round. She only wants me in hospital if I want to go if I think it's best. I don't know what's best. The crisis team are ringing tonight and seeing cpn again tomorrow. Don't know what to do. I don't want to go to hospital but I don't feel safe. Maybe if she got me some meds and kept busy somehow I could deal with it at home. Just all I can see is jumping off the bridge. Don't know what to do