My first impression of him was that he was handsome, maybe this was also a reason why I got into his car even I was manipulated. Maybe he would be nice? But when talking with him in the car yesterday my view of him changed. I said in the car yesterday I have it good alone and that of course everyone is looking for someone to love ( I do too ), but I made it clear enough that he should know theres a very little chance for anything to develope between us. This is when he started with saying opposite things that he in no way would want a home life with a woman, that life bored him. It was very clear that we found out we are not a good match in any way. It should be as clear for him as for me after all we got to talk in the car yesterday. We obviously had different values and views about life. Still he liked who I am and said I was very special person ( meaning I had very decided view of life, I have heard that I am special before too, for same reason I am decided and have gotten hard from past abuse ), its because my past experiences has made me hard. I think I can smell manipulators and I think this is why I was very defensive yesterday. I have learned I must be defensive because I have experienced the one manipulator after the other and the red flags show up in this guy too, its all to familar, still I do not trust myself. I smell it when I think they can use me for sex and I get defensive because of past abuse and use.

So I think he really knows, I never answered him yesterday when he said I have to like him, he should know by now I am not really interested. If I am interested a man will know.

Its still quiet so I guess maybe he has took the message or he is planning next manipulative act.

I mean, a man doesnt ask a women if she misses him just out of the blue after a conversation like we had yesterday. I would understand it if I had made some signal to him I was interested. I didnt.

So maybe he stops. We did indeed agreed to be friends yesterday as I said I could be a friend. Everytime I have said to a man we can only be friends or be friends, they have never managed to be friends and just vanishes, wish was fine for me. So for him to send texts asking if I miss him and that he misses me so much and thinks about me, is quite bizarre.