That's why I didn't take the gun from my Dad when he was getting depressed. It would have made him very mad and it would have done something else to accomplish the act. Something more horrifying I expect just to prove his point. Plus if someone had broke into his house and he was there defenseless that would have been hard to live with. Can't say I have never thought about suicide, even had a plan. But that was long, long ago.
I don't want to die just want life to be better or find a way to accept this is as good as it gets.