Hi Tucker!

I have been where you are..many times. The feelings of hopelessness & despair..and no-one seems to "get it" but you.

So we put on our "happy face" go to work, do our chores...with the tears just a blink away.

I am BP2...and I have been having the worst 10 mths of my life. I have reached "stability" which is usually short-lived, between hypomanic & depressive episodes.

Serooquel, Trazodone & zoploclone keep my racing thoughts at bay..and I am able to sleep @ least 4-5 hours.

I am wondering if the addition of a sleep medication or another
antipsychotic would be helpful for you..even if short term. The combo of these 3 for me at bedtime puts me under fairly quickly: no drowsiness following day.
Just a thought..it is SO difficult when one is troubled during the day & then cannot sleep.

I hope you can find some peace soon...

Grace03