Hi Secret- go back and read the response from "Hard2Smile" it's some really good advise. I too am plagued by these thoughts...every day...all day... I try to stay focused on how my actions would affect those who care about me. Also, sharing with someone how I feel and speaking the thoughts that are in my mind helps take the power out of the thoughts. BELIEVE that there may be a treatment that could help you feel better... Wish I had a better answer but these are the things that are helping me deal with the intrusive thoughts.