that was lovely hopeful. it gave me a smile and some warm feelings.

i feel like i miss my t too. one thing that he does that i think is kinda cute is that he tends to speak quite slowly whereas i am really reactive. the time i first met him he let me go into the room first and he had started speaking and had got to 'you can...' and i sat down and he continued 'sit anywhere you like. any seat that you would like to sit in'. he kind of finished the sentance off looking at me already being seated. the same thing happened again when i met him the second time lol. that kinda thing happens a lot. i guess i just kinda look at him and blink a little. i mean... i'm hardly going to stand up and pick somewhere else to sit now am i? though... i guess he is telling me that yeah, sure, i can do that if i would like. maybe i'll steal his chair one day lol.

sometimes he woffles. he makes little corrections to what he is saying too. looks slightly pained that he isn't expressing himself precisely enough. but seems to kind of enjoy woffling too. i don't mind. i find it kinda soothing. sometimes i see him trying really hard not to dig himself into a big fat hole. i find it amusing and feel kinda fond of him when he does that 'cause i have a tendency to do that too :-) 'cept i do it at about 90 miles per hour and wind myself up quite a lot. i try and guide him away from the hole sometimes. thats kinda cool :-)

because he seems to be kinda gentle and placid and a little bit woffley by nature i really like it when i surprise him or startle him. his eyes kinda light up sometimes. or sometimes he looks a bit surprised at something i've said and i like to think about why that surprised him. i guess i should ask, huh. but i like that. it gives me a smile. he has a kinda playful side too. comes out occasionally. not very often. i guess i don't come across as playful at all (too inhibited) but he really surprised me once by meeting me at the door. there is the door and then this white screen door. i opened up the screen door and he was standing there holding the inner door wide open. surprised me a great deal. he seemed amused that he had managed to surprise me. he tried it again the following week but i was ready for that and i might have looked a bit stern or cross 'cause he stopped it after that :-(

took me a bit to realise that he can watch me approach from outside his window (eek! i don't like that idea) but now he has started arriving JUST on time or a minute or two late (which is fine 'cause now i get to watch him drive up lol).