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I'm sorry you miss your T so much ... i know that pain also. I'm glad to hear though that you were/are able to share so much of yourself with them. That is SO important, and truly is such a wonderful thing to experience.
I have many memories or my old T .... now she is more of a friend, but one that i unfortunately don't have a lot of contact with. I miss her dearly, daily, constantly.