God I can sympathize with that forsure. I guess Im not thick skinned. My last relationship really did a number on me and I have never spoke with anyone about it so I dont know if I could even call it abusive but it was hell. I panic all the time, every day, for hours, over little issues with my new bf. Like (god this is embarrassing, but) "why hasn't he talked to me yet today, or at all today?", "why didn't he say goodnight, he always says goodnight, could he have someone else over?", and again today "he had that valentines card displayed in his room since Feb.14th why did he all of a sudden take it down, did he have someone else in there that he didn't want to see it?"...

It's stupid, and irrational, ridiculous among other things (time consuming thoughts).....but all plausible situations....situations I have been in before.......Im soooo scared it will happen again and I wont know about it. I dont want to be lied to or cheated on....I rather just be left alone.

We leave for Vegas on Friday, this whole card thing will be on my mind for at least a week and I know because of it I will be distant and weird around him. I dont want to be close to someone who has or is cheating on me, no point is asking him cause if it were true he'd lie anyways. I have learned from past experience that cheaters dont have the best moral

I hate that I feel this way, it annoys me and consumes my thoughts and time, people around me can tell that Im bothered and I guess I act weird so they dont want to be around me........I hate this.......and I hate my EX

Sorry, I guess I needed a little rant