This is how I can describe my mania for me cash:

I have little regard for the consequences of the decisions that I make.

Decisions that I make tend to be made in a flash at the drop of the hat.

Regardless of the outcomes.

So it's pretty reckless and sure has landed me in a great heap of trouble.


Mania is no fun for me. It's exhausting.

If anything my lesson learnt now is that I really need to be cautious and actually think things through before I impulsively act.

Which is a double whammy - I'm quite impulsive by nature, so it's not just when I have a mood state.

So I'm exercising self control today and this point forward.