I recommend talking to your therapist. She might even take a look at your dreams if you want her to.

I have OCD and a type of irritability that comes from bipolar II, which together have led to periods of rage (most of which I turn inward rather than outward). It took me a while in therapy to understand that it's not my fault I'm irritable and in pain, and that it's not my fault that OCD tends to amplify these things.

How do you feel when your parents treat you like a normal person?