Otiose, please dont think of that way out. I survived it and I am so thankful I survived, if I died I would not know what the day tomorrow would bring.

I many times thought there wont get getter, but suddenly one day something good happened.

Maybe your friends are a bit like some of my friends. I dont have a man or children, but most of my friends have a man and children. And sometimes when they have talked about common stuff I cant seem to be part of, they have sort of ignored the fact I am there and what could I say when not having a man and children myself.

Still its good to have friends that would join you in and listen.

Are they trying to be tough in the crowd? Its not your fault they are like they are, usually its something in them that makes them be like that, maybe insecurity or not knowing what to say or come across if they dont know how to respond or what to say.

But I totally understand you and your feelings, its not a nice feeling.

I do hope you can get to them somehow, if they are good friends they will understand you and listen. I know its hard to give input. I have the same problem when I am with a friend who has another friend in same room, seems like they have more in common.

I wish things will be good for you.