You know, I've realized something in my short 22 years. Whenever someone treats you bad or ignores you or doesn't make you feel like you're part of the group, that means THEY are feeling unsure of themselves. Because anyone who is feeling truly good about themselves, would go out of their way to make YOU comfortable. So if all your so called friends aren't being kind to you, I think that speaks more about them than you. You sound like a fine person. You sound intelligent. You sound nice. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. Its hard to find a good group of friends, I haven't yet. But I have faith that I'll meet better people in the future. Usually you'll run into a good person here and there but it takes time, that's why its not necessarily a good idea to just get a bunch of friends for the sake of having lots of friends. Like dating, you should pick your friends wisely. I have faith that you will find people who truly appreciate you. Until then, make sure you appreciate yourself.