maybe it's more important to have friends that you can talk about what's going on in your life and share that stuff which is why you Si than to think you have to talk about SI'ing itself. if you had food allergies once you told them that then you would talk about the foods you can't eat not the gross stuff the allergies make you into. i think it's the same way. when we cut it's because we want to get away from emotional pain or we want to feel real. talking about the cutting doesn't do me any good. i want a life, let's talk about life and why i think it's so bad i cut. to talk about SI'ing itself just magnifies it all out of proportion. others just don't get it. ya know?