well, i have been thinking a lot about the connection (obviously) and about the things i do/have done which have helped create the current situation. i did ask him to go very slowly and i do have a lot of crisis management stuff we always have to handle. So, when i think about a new T, i think he would have the same trouble. i am planning to stick with this guy for now. He is not pure CBT and doesn't believe there should be such a thing as a purist.

Right now i don't have any insurance to cover anything, so i guess what they think doesn't much matter.